Phobia

My E is really busy in these few days, cos some of his Japanese clients are in Shenzhen, so he needs to "drink" with them every evening.  Yesterday and the day before yesterday, he's so drunk, and he just sat on the couch to watch TV.  I woke up fm. my sleep (not conscious) the day before yesterday, and said to him "I think you are dead!", then I went back to sleep.  Yesterday, I knew he woke up in the mid-night (he's not feeling well), and I thought he's going to get a stroke.

Since my Dad's sudden death last year, I have this "death" phobia, I'm afraid of the couch in the hotel; I'm afraid of my love ones leaving me without saying good-bye.  So I'm so scared  my E will die in his sleep.  And if Amelie sleeps very quietly, I'd check her breath as well.    I ask my E this morning not to get so drunk, cos I'm really nervous in these few days.  I hope this phobia will go away soon.