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I miss my dad. I had a dream about him. I wish he was still here, giving me advice and yelling at me for touching his things. I know God is taking good care of him and i will see him again :)

Cherish all your loved ones because you never know when the time comes.

"The one who gets wisdom loves life; the one who cherishes understanding will soon prosper." Proverbs 19:8

Okay Ladies, here it is.

I want to share something wonderful with you. Something that every little girl dreams of when innocence is still innocent and when beautiful remains beautiful.

Mr. Right: The Man that makes the purpose of "Falling Inlove". He makes staring unstable, lip unspeakable, and heartbeats unstoppable. All at once, "Sigh~~~........." (Ahem) heheh

The tall dark and handsome prince who will catch you at the perfect time of a fall. His nearness makes everything warm filling your world with fire from his smile, his sense of smell tickles your heart leaving you joyfully content, and the way his voice whispers your name as it guides you through a wondrous maze of serenity and love. The one man who you desire most in every dream. Your soul searches, your flesh cries, and everything changes.

Reality is, he is just a fiction of our imagination. Someone who we created through society because Ken was perfect for Barbie, the innocence of love begin wrong.

We ladies, look onto Barbie as the perfect appearance for a Ken to fall inlove. The pretty clothes, the flawless skin, and the substantial inheritance she was born with. Beauty became nothing but plastic. Beauty manifested into something else.

My sisters, a thing of beauty is not of an appearance or what she has but the grace God placed upon her heart. So many painful mistakes of trying to change for Mr. Right or though you thought. BUT not even literally a handsome Prince, a sensational Pop Artist, or any successful Celebrity could change my will to be myself. I tell the lonely lover inside me that God is just preparing my beloved for me. I have to first get my relationship right with Christ then when i do, God knows my taste how could he give me less?

After all the tears and battles within me to be like a Barbie just for others to see me, it wasnt worth losing the real me. There are many sisters out there who are bless with beauty, wealth, and fame but as God said,

“Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.” –Proverbs 30:31

And in every Man, they too desire more than just an appearance. No matter how much a man can look at a beautiful woman, she must require a heart of gold.

See, I use to search for Mr. Right or lust after these handsome guys who are just like Ken. Setting myself for failure I still didn’t care, because they were so cute. I let my guard down, I let the one who wasn’t the one come steal my innocence. Willing and freely I gave my heart up. Change myself to better it for him so he can see how pretty I look. ALL because he was desirable.

The thing is it was never worth the trouble of searching and hoping so hard for that Desirable Guy who you think is the right guy but totally the wrong guy to come and disappoint you in the end.

What a mess we are sometimes, but the greatest part of this Love story within me is that God was by my side the whole time. Yes he taught me well but he loved me more to not ever lead me into the wrong hands again. My heart can never be broken because God is at the gate in charge of who can enter, the search for Mr. Right has ended because I don’t need to find him he will find me, and my hope for a great man of God is in the hands of my King.

I don’t need a Ken to make me his Barbie, I don’t need her wealth to make me beautiful, and I surly don’t ever want to forget who I am and why I am here.

Soul Sisters who are reading, remember that love isn’t about how the world puts it on the screen, but how God can and will bring “Mr. Right with God” into your life. And to my Brothers, know that this place is full of deceit, be like Joseph (Genesis 39) and fight the temptations in order to fully be bless abundantly by God

Its like Baking, trust the Baker to prepare the best, he knows all the right ingredient for it to come out just right! All that "Falling Inlove" will come, you just have to get to know God even better for him to know your taste!

Til next time, Right is Right, Wrong is Wrong, Don’t go walking where you don’t Belong!!! hehe

Bye!

 ~Mary

All the time God is Good, God is Good all the time!

Church at "One Love" here in Hawaii is AMAZING!!! I love my home here, God has been speaking to me daily, teaching me more, and revealing me the truth. The best part is spending time with him, getting to know him better:P I absolutely love it. This year 2011 has started off wonderful. Everything about my life has already been shifted by God. He is moving and preparing me for something more, something new, something even bigger. I dont know what it is, i just know its going to happen.

I use to plan it all, make all the decisions, and made sure it happened. But every little big thing failed. Me trying to do me Right....was totally Wrong. Even though i overcame so many obstacles, Jesus told me that "then" i had to See it to Believe it, but "now" I had to Believe it to See it. I thought i knew it all. I thought coming to LA was this huge change in my life. The NEW me in making "Dreams come true" as an actress/model. Be this inspiration towards my Hmong community, especially the little girls.

PERSISTENCE MARY!!- DETERMINATION MARY!!!- NEVER GIVE UP MARY!! FIGHTING FIGHTING!! (on very audition)
Then i thought.....wait a minute....i cant hear God,  "What is it that he needed again?" "What is he trying to tell me?" I cant....hear him....I could barely see him.

-BLANK-

Yes i became Blank again. I went in circles again. I I I, me, me, me.... (get the point)

All that "Wanting". All that "Look at what i can do". All that "Junk" period.

Im not saying Acting is Bad. I love theater. Its just the people, the whole filthy greed of wanting fame and money so bad. Its not even about the Art anymore. All it is is a pretty face and 10 bucks in your pocket Hoping for someone to discover you or you having something to eat later.

Of course your Blessed with a talent, But its how you use it that pleases God. And thats when it hit me. To be made New, you gotta give up the things you "Want". Trust God to bless you with the things you need. Which leads me to this verse,

 “Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moths and vermin destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moths and vermin do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

The eye is the lamp of the body. If your eyes are healthy, your whole body will be full of light. But if your eyes are unhealthy, your whole body will be full of darkness. If then the light within you is darkness, how great is that darkness!

No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one and love the other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money."

-Matthew 6:19-24

Christ is beyond Goodness, family. This is the Truth....

My "Dream Come True" is to see my name Written in the Book of Life because that's the real Reality.
The PERSISTENCE - DETERMINATION - NEVER GIVE UP -FIGHTING FIGHTING, these are the Auditions in my life when God ask, "What have you done with my son?"
Going BLANK doesn't mean theirs nothing there, it just mean God is waiting for you to let him have the brush. Will you trust him to finish?

A Job doesnt make us happy. A career can only last so long. But a talent being used for his purpose is worth the retirement in Heaven! :) I hope you guys can apply this into your life and know that God is Large and in Charge!!!! hehe Love you all, good night :P

Much Aloha 

Hello Everyone!! Happy Thanksgiving!!!! I hope everyone is as stuff as i am right now!!! heheh About to knock out zzZZzz that was yuMMmy GOod!! :)

I just wanted to share with you all my new baby chihuahua mix "Buffy". She is 8 weeks old and loves to cuddle!!! Im officially a mommy now tehehe :P

Til then ENJOY YOUR TURKEY!! Love Love Love <3