The Memories :

it's been 5 years already..My dad has left the family without we realizing it.
Feels so empty cuz I'm like the only son in the family and my dad is like my brother to me..
we were so close and we even address to each other as "I" and "You". =)

We will always watch wrestling shows together late nights n my dad will always disturbed me whenever there's a WWE DIVA match where all the hot diva wrestlers fight on the ring
and he said "yeah look at the boobs only ahhh" but at that period of time i didn't care-less hahaha cuz i'm still kinda young. =p

Soccer match, late nights, just the both of us and blast the home theater surround sound system like as if we at the Stadium. It was awesome. If it's about soccer we were get so hyper and especially WORLD CUP!! damn i miss those times... but now whenever i watch soccer matches i don't feel the hype no more..i don't even bother..i just wait for the end-results.

And whenever it was Pay Day for My Dad altho' i think it's just enough to feed the family, he will always bring the whole family to Parkway Parade! A local Shopping Center..without failed! it was like a routine! and we will always eat  LONG JOHN SILVERS and followed by TOY "R" US!! and my sibilings and myself will grab all the toys hahahaha it was history and legendary whenever i went to parkway parade now but to my surprised altho' every pay day of the month my dad brought the whole family there..we will NEVER GET BORED of it! AND TILL NOW I DONT KNOW WHY! hahahaha! i think spending family quality time. =) damn i miss that so much.. now can somebody bring me there again! =)

And before my dad last few weeks of his life. I joined my school talent time competion and i won the first place that's where i discovered my talent in rapping. Before i showed him the pictures of my performance that my friends took..i was thinkin that i thot he will be angry and stuffs but i was wrong cuz actually when i showed him my rap performance pictures he was so proud of me and he said just believe in yourself and just continue doing it as far as u can..as long as u make the family proud and as long as not the other way. Which yup right to this day i did. And he actually saw my first ever Rap performance pictures.  =)


The Birth :

My mom told me that last time when my mom gave birth to both of my sisters my dad was kinda upset cuz for the 2nd child it was still a girl. He always wished for a boy and later on
7th September 1988, i came into this world and he was delighted, happy..his wish was granted.. =)

Futhermore, my mom told me that when she gave birth to me it was rather pretty shockin' cuz givin birth to me it was not a normal standard procedure.
It was because My Butt made the first - breech! when supposingly it shud be my head!  .
*i dont know what it is called there's a name to it* cuz that kind of childbirth it was crucial and needed to give birth as quickly as possible..so all the doctors and student nurses came to watch and learn how's da procedure like and stuffs.

Yeah, it was my mom first time and the doctors/nurses first time experience. I'm proud of my mom for everything. Thank You Mom. There's no one can replace u and there's no words to describe how much i love you.  When i heard the story...i was like *speechless and that's why i appreciate her so much as long as im alive*

so yeah, my parents didn't expect it and didn't have any boy's name in mind at that time..so they just used my Grandfather's Name which is Ridhwan but they just change the letter "H" to a "Z" cuz my dad's name is Mohd Zin and it starts off with the letter "Z"


So ladies and gentlemen boys and girls, Do treasure your parents. And no matter what dont ever be rude to them! altho' u hate them so much or watever the reason..try to forgive and forget ok?  Appreciate them and takecare of them no matter what.

But now i can't celebrate Happy Father's Day but only i pray for him every single day..sometimes when i go out to chill with my friends and stuffs. I will always see a complete Happy Family. It was nice but sometimes i also saw a complete family but their children is like direspectin their own parents..haiz...

Thank You Mom And Dad. I love you both and dad rest in peace Happy Father's Day.

** Listen to the song Farewell on my music player **