In Dedication to...

This new blog entry goes out to all the people that understands the meaning of struggling.

         Poverty comes in many forms, shapes, and masses. It could be a struggle with financial needs, a malnutrition soul, or just an empty life in general. There are those who have wondrous dreams but never try hard enough to pursue their goals. There are also those who live an empty life, wealthy with materialistic things, but without a purpose in life. Poverty is an issue in present day society, with or without recognition to this subject. There are many people who dream big, but feel that they can never achieve their goal, so they stop trying.

        I've grown up in a very unhealthy environment. It has tormented me inside and out. Sometimes i see things fall apart in front of my eyes, yet, there is absolutely nothing i can do to save it from breaking. Sometimes, i feel as if my existence is unsubstantial; and it has been. I had many dreams. I had a full sky of clouds with my dreams written on them. One by one, they all disappeared and turned into rain; splattering brokenly onto the dirty filled earth.

        I am a person with many secrets. I've learned to don a shield for my vulnerability. The people who're around me most often are actually my worst enemies. They've become the dangers and nightmares of my life. For this, i've learned to grow up. I try my best to reach out to my dreams and become who i've always wanted to be. I'm struggling every day to work toward the goals of my life. For that, i'm grateful for finding Alivenotdead. You've awakened my soul inside. It's as if there's another me that has always been dying to come out. There were times when i've wanted to just stop trying and just give up. When i found AnD, i realized that dreams do come true and hard work does earn credits. I am not a social climber nor am i an ass kisser. For this very reason, i've failed again and again on many aspects. I have my own opinions and i can be quite stubborn with my beliefs. Here on AnD, i've learned that all the beautiful music and images are built bit by bit by hardworking hands.

      You see, nothing comes for free in this world. You can either work your ass off to achieve your goal, or you can sit your lazy ass somewhere dreaming about what could've been but never will be. For this very reason, i'm trying my best now to get out of the hell-hole i've once believed was my fate. This is my first dedication to the AnD team, and this will definitely not be the last.