decision making...

Yeah, after this incident last week I had a good conversation to Jeanne and Carmella in the shoutbox yesterday evening which helped me a lot to come to a decision concerning my "special one". I'm still very gratefull that they found the time to talk with me! Though it turns me a bid sad...that's what my hair stylist said to me this morning...

I also talked to a common friend (female) of me and my "special one" this morning and she gave me the advice to remain silent and let him get back to me....

Oh yeah and finally I talked to a close friend of mine this afternoon and we took the chance of going for a walk and a delicous pizza in this clear sunny autumn weather we had today...talking to her always feels good and calms me down...unfortunately we can't meet so often...

So I finally came to the decision to break up all contact to him, though it might harm and weaken our community - and I'll miss my friends there - but everytime I meet him I feel bad afterwards because he's not paying the attention to me I'd wish he pay and I always miss the "right" moment to talk to him. So think It's the best to do it this way
And I also thought we wouldn't fit together from the beginning of our acquaintanceship so I always tended to keep my heavy crush for him to myself but his leads to nothing good as you can read in various blog entries of me. I don't need a selfish playboy in my life who keeps all the applause for himself!

Let's see what might happen....

At least I feel better at the moment ...