family matters

My father's hatred for my husband has been the cloud over me especially since friday when Corey and I went to see our counsellor, Lorraine.  Couple-wise Corey and I are doing very well.  Both Corey and Lorraine explained to me that just capitulating and going back to they way things were is only more damaging in the long run.  Heavy sigh and stifled breath.  Now I actually have to take a stand.  The guilt is acid in my throat when I dad said, "We are your family too."  I won't be able to be as harsh as Corey and Lorraine think I should be.  The plan is to go down tomorrow with Seyon early in the morning, deal with the kitchen designer and bills, and let my dad have his say.  Lorraine told me to not hear his side of the story out and I agree that hearing his deluded version will only bring grief for me.  I will do my best to stop the flow of poison, however, I do need to fulfill my duty taking care of the house and making sure dad's surgery goes well.

Whilst writing this Seyon, our Korean buddy, reminded me of the code of honor amongst  Asians.  On the one hand it strengthens my resolve that that's not the kind of parent I want to be: on the other hand, it saddens me to think that my father's obstinance may mean that he's going to disown me.

Please God give me strength.