Should uncertainty be hope or risk for me?

Theoretically, the answer would be a 50/50 mix of the two possibilities. It’s not surprising that people actually have different leanings on this, just like any other two-sided coin questions. To optimistic people, uncertainty means there’re always opportunities to improve and make things happen in a nicer way than what already exist, while passive ones would be more likely to consider about the possible risks that uncertainty could bring them.

It’s only about half a year ago when all I can see from uncertainty are hopes. Things change so quickly. Now, looking at the same world of uncertainty, I feel frightened, because any of it can lead me to end up with a miserable situation.

Maybe it’s due to my getting in touch with a bunch of old friends in the past couple months, who I haven’t talked to for years. And this meeting and exchanging with my classmates way back in high school suddenly made me realize I could be the unhappiest person who has nothing of my life in certainty. I’ve no idea about eventually where I’m gonna settle down, who’s the guy I’m going to spend my lifetime with, when I’ll meet him, what’s my career path gonna be like….I’m at nowhere. I have nothing real grasped in my hand. It’s pathetic, isn’t it?

Or it’s only has something to do with my being a little down these days because of the recent work pressure on me or because of nothing (for the record that I usually handle pressures quite well). I can get really emotional at some point. Without any specific reason, my mood against time could be plotted as a perfect sine/cosine waveform with a rather high range. Well, it just takes time to ease the inexplicable depression.

Anyhow, time will let those uncertain things unfold in front of me sooner or later. I really should worry less about the future and work harder on every single task at hand which, to a much greater extent, could be controlled by myself.