不能表達感情的心情...

 沒有想回報的付出..
就因為是家人.. i want to do all that i can
but i still want my own time..
time that i can do what i want or what i need
難道我付出的還不夠多嗎?
從以前在highschool.. 因為照顧妹妹
很多同學聚會都沒有的去..
到現在.. 要幫忙載東載西的..
sometimes they are even late for the pick up time..
made me sit in the stupid car with nth to do for more than 15mins...
人生有多少個15分鐘?
這星期天還要開6小時....
6 小時耶... weekend 就這樣沒啦...
星期五晚就想relax... 不可以嗎?
星期六就想做點自己想or需要的..
很過分嗎? i just want my own time too...
what the hell?
i just want to use my own pace to finish my task..
what is everyone want to restrict me?
why is everyone like to push?
one is my mom.. two younger sisters..
not my daughters.. how can u compare?
your responsibilities are different......
why compare you and me?
WHY!!!!!!!!

i hate freaking dress code!!
party is for fun.. why dress code??
work already have dress code..
stupid part time already have dress code..
why does a party need a dress code?!?!?!?!

ahhhhh.. why is Friday night all about whining?
i hate life like this...
i hate myself being like this..
but there are no way else to release all this...
lecture.. lecture.. always lecture when i wanna release my stress...
wanna freaking run away!

 最近諸事不順, 讓自己的自信心繼續下沉
覺得自己很失敗ne.. 越來越討厭現在的我
現在的我還蠻不知所謂的..
而且真的很不成熟.. 就是年齡於思想不相符的說
我越是在乎現在的每一段友誼.. 越是會出亂子
就這樣不知為何的消失了..
我知道我讓你不開心, 我也認錯了
真心的.. 雖然事情已過那麼久..
那你呢? 你好像也說了一句..
很傷我心的話.. 我最不想聽的..
不逃避問題.. 要面對.. 是現在的我最想做到的
可是為甚麼有些人一點都做不到?
還是有點難過.. 我不是要全世界都喜歡我..
只是不要被討厭到就好.. ><
最近動不動就很容易哭..
所以前晚真的崩潰了.. 哭的很厲害
我真的很相信Karma.. 因為我已經看到自己種出來的果!

Jing! 張芸京

She won the super idol in Taiwan last year

She is just awesome!!

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Roz Bell Rock xD

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