'I was just thinking about you the other day.'

It is easier to forget than to remember? Y? I guess it takes determination, decisiveness, courage to take up consequential responisbilities that came from this decision, therefore, at times, a lot of effort...self motivated energy from within, where hopes are lost somestimes yet u still hang on.With these reasons, many chose to forget...forgetting is somehow effortness.This process repeats so manytimes thru one;s lifetime..Suddenly remember Newton, who discovered Gravity and its law. I do reall do respect those who discover laws like this....bcos it's absolute, no debate ,therefore no right or worng. Just one answer it is the way it is.

This forgettting is almost as sure as this law of gravitiy.If u dont truly emotionally involved with that person...why would u have that? why the need of emotionally involved...what causes that?Love...too heavy of a word? I bet u cant say U love all the people u r trying to forget...especially some takes longer...some shorter...if not love what then..

Loneliness maybe............

so it is how the person u met can fill the degree of your  loneliness.

some can fill more, some even created more...the more that person can fill your specific set of loniliness, the more u r close to that person...for numerous reasons when 2 cant be together...u have to part that person...withdraw from all the closeness...so

oneday u r like 2 in 1, sometimes 2 becomes 1,once when it expires, 1 east 1 west, they never meet again..then this has initated the forgetting process. such painful experience.For what...for someone who cant fill that need. My my my my need.

When could this be stopped?? maybe when we stop thinking m my my...starts by thinking what about her her her her....

so next time, when your mind pops, 'I was just thinking about her the other day?'

Maybe one should be thinking...has i learned anything?'

someone did thinking about me someday...this is what I thought?

j

Wow...

couldnt believe...i can be away for so so long.

Things u think u can stick to, pronciples, writing blogs faithfully.....etc...

somehow, i lost contact...Y...? dont even know....

busy...it is busy? i hope the things that occupied me were well worth this 'Awayness'.

i m happy when i write that hadnt change.

I was interviewing a ex HK hi official....Fred ma...now a brother....

Pressures- he difines.

When U , yourself hv hi demands(no.1-this is in everything/project) except the other2

then too many restriction(no.2)

and no support(no.3)

Tha became your own pressure....this past yr...welll to be fair...half yr...

i m totally in such a state....somehow try to jugglle things using God's given wisdom....

but still me juggling....after the interview...

i should stop juggling....and let someone much much higher if u truly believe to your heart

takes over....it's very abstract....but when u do....i guess....amazing things happen like amazing things before...we all sort of forgotten those...

so here i m reConnect...from my awayness....

remind myself...from a calm sunday morning....with 25C in my room

yes i do like warmness that wraps around my temp sensitive skin

that....i m still here and well.

I hope u r all well too

j

Is easy to say and pronnounce when U have all the time in the world,

if one gets busy....like myself in the past yr....

I failed my duty to wirte...my so called 'passion'.

I know one can understands....setting asiade for something more important at the time

But are those stuff really more imporatnt stuff....it seems so at the time.

Still i do miss my writings...my sharing with you,

wheteher U ocassionally checking in or not, maybe I'd already lost U.

U promise something...people expected that soemthing to be delived...but it failed to deliver

first...a day...a few days...moths...irregualrly.

Who in the world would keep coming....then Loyalty breaks...Loyalty no more.

Here I m apologise....sending my regards to all fo you still log in somehow.

But next time I write...I cant promise...

cos I dont want to promise something I cant keep...

Misleading is the worst thing ever.

j

Was gonna go to sing K with a bunch of young producers.........25,26.......28

Time set at 11pm....last time they asked....i was the only one to show up,

ended up talking to the boss and become friends.....

So...this time...honestly skeptical....there's a 30% i might go.....

I guess in everything.....when people asked you to join....they are serious....

but are they commited.....not really.

Still like 3 hrs to the time.....my eyelids are falling.....well...I toook a nap

at least this is what I thought it was....here I m 645am.

Well...i dont felt like losing anything...in fact ...i m very happy n peaceful.....

should I did go....my head would probably be so heavy with ache.

I went on FB to browse........first checked out hows last night K was

People is that fast to uplaod their photos....sometimes  i wish

people can channel this kind of determination in ohter things.

After awhile....i went on to one of my buddy's page....

saw 2 tubes he put up.....i clicked to see.....

it was a record of my bday last last year.....1st one 56sec...then 36sec...

they were breif....but it said so much.....

the people there that night....the song i sang that nnight....

i know i'd been blessed.....and still is blessed.

i know tho....Time Flies.

I dint go to last night's K honestly....I didnt miss much.

I miss that night in the tube.

j

as i walk home

that i have a clean heart

i have a humble heart

i have a simple heart.

my friend took my car,

he's from HK.

I was eating at my EX and her husband and my daughter,

they were so content watching tv,

i was overly tired from work.

nor the car will be arriving anytime soon.

I want to walk.....it is a sunny day.....

my first stop....to walk acrosss their home , a cinema,

intend to watch Bruno.....still have to wait 30min.....kind of waste,

i saw the sun setting....warm yet cool....i know it will be a good walk,

split second....i decided to walk......walking home...........

here i m.......

1 hr........it feels good.

a clean heart, a humble heart, a simple heart.

I'm gald that i walk home.

j