i m well....

When one u cared suddenly had disappeared for sometime,

it's always good to know what happened, where about, happy or not those things about that

someone....so, let me report myself...i m safe and well....

Toooooooo many things had happend.....

Things i'd like to write them down so u may share....

as little as what's feel like -25C? with the wind they called it 'Windchill' effect here...

it feels like -35C....does it? I actually dont know.....

but that morning, i stppend out my door....before jumping into my car....

i looked up the sky....felt and smelled the air....

feeling fortunate that I can sense the crisp and cleaniness of the air...

i can sense the cold....it was actually different than from what you would normally thought,

that emporary stay actually felt slow motioned and i'd liked it. Only u r in here.

From that...I learned, only if one is in certain situation or circumstances that one can

can fully comprehend ....

what does it feel like when u lose someone dear?

what if u r in fear of losing a job to someone else....?

what if u r no longer in the spot light???

what if someone considered pulling someone's life support while one is still concious in

in mind ,but not in speech???

Only if u r in the centre of the situation u would know...

I was in that arwful situation....witnessing....the good n evil alongside side by side...

still remembered the 'Mama' i'd asked U guys who believed inprayers to pray for her

awhile back.....

I vistied her 2 times....1st one....she had no reponse....

2nd time....she could responded yes or no by raising her left and right hand...

3rd time....2 of her kid flown from HK....

decided to pull the life supporting nutrient from Mama...

without asking mama....

i was shocked!!! I encouraged my friend....to defend for mama....

t'hey could stand her painful survival....' said my friend.........

'SO that's how U decided....' controlling my anger I asked!!!

(..........long story................)

these past few days.......my soul lies within that........long story.....

another half of me doing just normal stuff.....radio...TV.....meetings.....

the other half missing Mama....

the doctor said.....'she would leave within a week'........

It's 2009 how could this ever happend?????

why would her children make such a deicision without even asking her direct...

why would the doctors....recmmended that.....is it the High Cost...the Managment pressure

to dcotors....?????????? Tons of these questions.....racing thru my mind...

i had to do something.....but i m not Mmam's family....

i lied....i wrote an email....secretly to the hospital without the fmaily knowing....

to theri public relation and director....

someone called the next day asking me.......................................

I was tipped by some anoynnomous soruce about misadminstarion of the hospital.....

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..........................................................that life support was taken away while the patient clearly has

the abiltiy to repsond altho not with her speech....

Hoping....a miracle would happen.....it's already 2 days Mama without the nutrient....

chance is dimming............

Hospital was alarmed.....having a big meeting with the family and lawyer.......

Life and death situation......

will Mama put back on life support???

I texted my friend.....MMama's grandson....

'mama is talking about things long time ago.........but very weak'

weak...bcos of no nuttrients....

so Mama's still living.....talking!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  is it = to have life support...??????

I was in at a Foodcourt with a friend.....

4 tables across saw a younng boy gazing at me...then looked away when i discovered him,

he then looked at me again....i looked at him....again he turend away....

he's slightly deformed needed to be seated in a wheel chair

a sister , dad n mom......the mom spoke in his ears...and th boy knodded...and

looked at me again....

when they left...the dad had put him in the wheelchair....looked tired....

as they approached my side...

I got up and walked to the kid....'Hi....how r u???'

'U r Ming Sing(star)'........the boy loudly spoken out....

I hugged him tight....'how u doing....what r u having....'

"MacDonald...!!!'

'R U happy?''           

Yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!! said the little boy......I said I m happy tooo...and hugged him someore!!!

'May I have your autograph'

I took out my little business card....

i first drew a smiley face....then signed my name./..

the write...'I m a MIng Sing but so R U!!!!'

i saw the parents....the dad...finally smile a little...!!!

This are my few days....!!

I  believe there is hope and we can always do more!!!

worry+warmth+fear+anger+puzzle+amazed+love             part of life.

i m well i hope so r u!!

j