she could die..what a wierd thought

I woke up this morning,

it was quiet.....i was half an hour earlier than my set alram would had awaken me.

I drank a glass of water.....enjoying the wholesome waking up process,

during such a time,

I let myself submerge in a praying mode.....just felt like it would be great   to have

this as the 1st thing /1st activity...well next to drinking my H20.

I let my mind flow n wandered....to anything, anyone,anywhere....(  mornings should be like this,this is our basic right...isnt it?? Manytimes we forfieted it.

job's stuff.....Nah !! i said in my mind(i rejected mindfully, it's funny how we always put job first that it become so naturally it is our no.1......I resumed my wander....

my kids....broader....poor kids...broader....people at war.....peacekepper......

all of a sudden

my mom's face....how's she been so patient with me all my life....

how she's getting old...healthy tho...funny and vibrant yet old....75....

'she could die....like how a battery will run off oneday....without u knowing'

i stopped....a lot of times....i just let the urgency go....it's just my mom....she's here....that's ok.

i like my space........my own solitude....i own morning,

but i chose to make a LD call to HK, not anything emotional,

'I had thought of U in my quiet this morning, just now, so I called U.....happy ma?'

'Yes..yes...nobody loves me' she kidded, that's our secret code of saying hadnt been in touch

for awhile...

'somebody loves u........' i said. 'Right?'

yesyes....and we talked for around 4-5min.

Then i go to work.

j