I still miss you so

I miss you, I miss you, I miss you!
try to tell myself i shouldn't..
everyone told me i don't deserve any craps from you
but i miss you..
last night some memories flash into my mind
how we watched super bowl together..
guess this year i'll be watching it myself
may be how you treat me now is the best way for me
since i don't know how to be your friend
it sounds like u can never be forgiven
but i miss you
even my dreams doesn't like me anymore
all i can dream of is the fact
the freaking cruel fact..
i started to be illusive
hope that i won't get too serious into it
i can't afford to have any mental problems
how am i suppose to stop illusion things?
i wanna cry.. but no tears come out..
but i know it comes out from my heart
so sick of how you don't realize the truth
really hope you will see it soon
i promise i won't laugh
just don't.. don't go away again..