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• Mixed Feeling

  2008-09-16 10:24PM / 標準BLOG / 會員可以看
  

  ~ HAppY~

  I had a great weekend. I have fully utilised my 4 days holidays. Had much fun on Bit Bit wedding which i will blog about it later when i get all the beautiful photos from all the handosme photographers! FASTER FASTER, I wan photos!!!

   

  FEAR + SAD + WORRIED

  An old friend told me he has gone bankrupt. Scary word but no kidding. Is real. He is an old friend who took care of me a lot during my teenage years. I am so curious and wondering why he went oversea in a sudden, now only i know why. He didn't really tell me what cause all this. I dun think is nice to ask either and i know is hard for him to tell. I could only ask him to stay strong and be positive.

  Frankly, i doesn't know how to accept this. Everything suddenly come to a pause when i hear this news, where i stop and look around me. Imitation starts to run in my mind. What if this situation happens to me? What will i do and how will i face it? I really have no idea. i only know that i wouldn't be able to take this. I will break down.

  I felt his fear and the desperation to get money to settle the debt. The helpless and loneness. Questioning previous decision that lead to this and fade. All the mix feeling floated into my mind.

  After 2 days  and the scenario are still repeating in my mind. Question mark stil everywhere. Doesn't know why it bothers me. But it just bothers me. Felt stupid but felt sorry for him at the same time. I doesn't know how to talk to others about this. so i just blog my feeling out.