hate that i love you

i love this song at the moment,
by rihanna and ne-yo.

i'm not good at writing or expressing my feelings, that's why i just love it and am still very amazed at how certain songs have just the right lyrics that you're looking for, whether it's for a special someone, or it depicts certain moments of your life.

the boy sent me a parcel a few weeks ago, and it was a new 80GB iPod Classic, along with a pink case for it. he knew that my iPod mini was dying and i can't live without music. this iPod is now my precious baby.

it's weird how when he showers me with too much attention, i feel a little choked. and when i get used to receiving his text msgs all the time, i get really affected when he hasn't sent me one for the day yet. totally emo-ing now, maybe 'cos it's that time of the month, bleah.

but ever since he has been calling me while he's at the base in California, i miss talking to him on the phone, and i find myself thinking of him every single second no matter how busy i am with school. i try to tell myself to focus on sch, but i really don't know why lately, i seem to be the totally emotional one, someone whom i don't want to be. maybe because we haven't seen each other for 4 months already.. and it's just so hard to be apart. i miss him so much, and i reallly hope to see him in december. that's really all that i'm looking forward to at the moment.

i've been busy filming for my final-year project and doing production work for my radio drama and feature story for audio production class.

2 more weeks to the end of the first semester, then exams, then continuation of final-year project. then...... december.

this whole long-distance thing is starting to take its toll on me again, as i see how the others around me are happily in love and their partners are here with them, anytime they need a hug. but just like how the song goes.. i hate how much i love this boy, but i just can't let him go.

le sigh.



Rihanna - "Hate That I Love You"
(feat. Ne-Yo)

[Rihanna:]
As much as I love you
As much as I need you
And I can't stand you
Must everything you do make me wanna smile
Can I not like you for awhile? (No....)

[Ne-Yo:]
But you won't let me
You upset me girl
And then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget (that I was upset)
Can't remember what you did

[Rihanna:]
But I hate it...
You know exactly what to do
So that I can't stay mad at you
For too long that's wrong

[Ne-Yo:]
But I hate it...
You know exactly how to touch
So that I don't want to fuss.. and fight no more
Said I despise that I adore you

[Rihanna:]
And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah...)
I can't stand how much I need you (I need you...)
And I hate how much I love you boy (oh whoa..)
But I just can't let you go
And I hate that I love you so (oooh..)

[Ne-Yo:]
You completely know the power that you have
The only one makes me laugh

[Rihanna:]
Said it's not fair
How you take advantage of the fact
That I... love you beyond the reason why
And it just ain't right

[Ne-Yo:]
And I hate how much I love you girl
I can't stand how much I need you (yeah..)
And I hate how much I love you girl
But I just can't let you go
But I hate that I love you so

[Both:]
One of these days maybe your magic won't affect me
And your kiss won't make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you'll probably always have a spell on me...

[Ne-Yo:]
Yeaahhh... Oohh...

[Rihanna:]
As much I love you (as much as I need you)
As much as I need you (oooh..)
As much I love you (oh..)
As much as I need you

[Rihanna:]
And I hate that I love you so
And I hate how much I love you boy
I can't stand how much I need you (can't stand how much I need you)
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can't let you go (but I just can't let you go no..)
And I hate that I love you so

And I hate that I love you so.. so...