In Khmer, “kru” means teacher but is culturally loaded with
many other meanings. I think it stems from the Indian word that English calls
“guru.” Maybe, maybe not, just my speculation. FYI, Cambodian culture is
greatly influenced by Indian culture.
The “Kru” I refer to today is a spirit/guardian angel that Cambodian
culture believes follows you throughout your entire life. Of course, there are
things you must do to honor your “kru” but I will not get into that.
Some people have 1 “kru”,
some people have more than 1.
and some have none.
As much as I THOUGHT I had one, my dad found out that I DON’T.
When my sister told me this news, many things went through my mind.
“Am I alone?”
“Am I not special?”
“How will this knowledge affect my confidence?”
“Who is it that watches me then?”
“Is the energy I feel all my own?”
“Is acquiring this knowledge not fact but a simple test from
God that will push me to be better?”
I was confused, disappointed, relieved, lonely, sad,
determined, empowered, angry, scared, curious, etc.
As time went on, I worried less about NOT having a “kru” and
more about how determined I am to take this life on alone. That’s what I
thought…
I received a check last Friday that made it possible for me
to replace the last thing necessary for Dary’s wedding. Without it, I WOULD NOT
have been able to do this. It is time for me to change my focus FROM everything
I lack in my life TO all the priceless things money cannot buy. I realized there’s
NO “kru” with me but I’m NOT alone. THERE ARE ANGELS HERE ON EARTH.
I definitely have an idea of who this check is from. I
rejected a few online offers of aid but this one angel is very stubborn, I
don’t know how she was sure it would reach my hands the way it did but it did.
Dary and John says Thank You and I say thank you for being
stubborn but please please please don’t do it again.
I know I've been absent for many days (as apparantly you have, too!) but this blog has been eating away at me....
So, answer me this: HOW does your dad know you don't have a kru? It is written down somewhere or was there a ceremony that was never completed? I'm afraid I don't understand this concept. Please share.
In the meantime, instead of playing the loner, how about accepting the fact that you have a few good fellow commrades-in-arms that will stand NEXT to you in your battles? =)
dy... we work hard for our money and to build our life. we dont want to ask for help. every1 loves u, u given us so much to entertain our life so we can move on living every day. i learned that sometimes... u have to accept 'GIFTS' xD nothing wrong with that rite? its not a selfish act for someone to care for u and having the heart to give :)
u were stubborn too hehehe *sigh*
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