Complaint bout Men....yes it's time for one...haha

As I've said I've been single for 5 yrs and still counting. Why? Cuz I turned down all guys who've asked me for my number or wanted to get with me or whatever it may be....Oh I still remember tall blondie with blue eyes and those nice hunky big muscle arms!! *drools while writing the descrīption of the arms* hahaha wish I groped his arms..but nah..lol

He was cute, but he didn't seem like the type that would be settling down or wanting to. U know what he was after especially when he caught me in my pjs, which is barely anything at all..haha Ya he got a eye full. I think he got a glimps down my shirt too hmmm.. Yah, never again am I opening my door to strangers....haha

So yes, I've been single for I think now its safe to say 6 yrs and still counting??

The thing about me and guys is that I can't trust men. They get me aggitated with having to guess if he's into me or not, or whatever is he after? I don't know...just tell me! I like direct answers, but no man will tell a women what he really wants. Darn...Agony! Yes I am dumb with men, I admit it! I don't know how to have a proper relationship with them either, except for my dad...well because he's my dad. But boys...*cough cough*  And I thought girls were hard to figure out.

But being single isn't bad. I'm thinking that I actually prefer being single because I don't need to accomidate another person into my life. Too much drama with me when a guy enters my life, it throws me off balance. I've tried it recently, it's not fun having a crush. Now that crush has died off...so eh...

I think one thing that's been setting off guys is that I have a mood ring on my wedding ring finger...I don't know, but shouldn't they be able to tell that it's just a mood ring..lol I mean C'mon??  Even the girls know...lol okay, maybe guys are just dumb that way. I don't know. Why do I have it on that finger? Because it just feels nice there. Can't explain it. I'll feel naked without it being on that finger.

I know why I don't have guys asking me out. I'm not gf material. It seems that to me for starters, I'm just out to play with men.  Not like sleeping with them, I'm not willing to give up that easily. I mean I'm a big flirter without really knowing I'm flirting most of the time. Really can't say how badly I'd love to have a guy hold me in his arms and keep me there forever, but that in reality is never going to happen regardless of what I do. I don't pretty myself up ever. I'm just me. You get what you see basically. A guy who wants me to change...he'd have to change what I do. Like literally.

I've been always saying that guys are bad for me, or that I'm just bad with guys. Reason is because I'm not willing to get hurt again. I mean once was already enough, trust me, that wasn't the nicest let go ever. He abused me. Trash one day, the next a diamond and the cycle repeats over again until he treated me like trash every single day.  I'd still like to pound his head in...and how odd, he's married.

Ideally the guy whom I want and is perfect for me would be a guy that can read my mind and know what I'm thinking with a given facial expression, but trust me, most guys would go, "You want to get kinki NOW??"  ...so that doesn't work out too well for me..haha

But a guy that's very warm and knows how to handle himself around a shy girl like me. Most of the times I feel like running away from the guy because I'm just shy that way. Don't get me wrong, it's not like I don't want to be around the guy, I do want to be around him, but I don't know what to say or do besides for turning red. So I run most of the times. Ideally, my perfect guy would see me run then grab my hand before it's too late, hold me back and hug me until I resume my regular heart beat...awwww...

Meaning, I don't want a guy that'll get easily discouraged. I don't want a guy that will be buying me things from left to right. I'm not material. I'm not big on jelewry either. I'm picky... Swords is a way to win over my heart, but even with swords I'm picky. hahaha But chocolate...if he can work that in, I'm his forever!

But ya....only when pigs, cows, dogs and cats fly.  

A girl with a few glitches, he'd have to be able to handle that. I'm not perfect at all. But I try to overcome my own obstacles. Even though I'm not able to change my DNA.....which scares off tons of guys...sadly. No I don't want plastic surgery or anything. I'm okay with it as long as you don't look at it, I'm fine...

By all means, my regular self, I'm as cute as can be. I sleep with stuffed animals, kiss them and poke them on the nose before I say goodnight. haha probably would do that to a guy too, but never tried it before since that situation has never come to be. I do whimper like a puppy, I do cute noises, I do like to tickle, I do like to sit and just sleep on your shoulder/chest/lap, I do like to hold hands and go out, I do like to play pool, air hockey, volley ball, basket ball, and play with animals. What am I doing? Painting a perfect picture? geeezzzz...

With guys, no I don't read signs clearly. They confuse the crap out of me.  Since hs I've all guy friends, but since college, all girl friends. Guys, it's more along the lines of backing away from them no matter how cute they are. haha it's all professional basis really. Getting hurt isn't on my list to do. Being in a relationship with kids isn't something I'm truely looking forward too either.  The only clear sign I can read from a guy is that kinky one night stand type of look.  Otherwise all others signs strike up an .......

Yes I've my fantasies with men, especially Archie...hahaha...those arms and his eyes...his smile and his lips..WOWZA!!! Hey if Matt Damon wasn't married, I'd be dreaming of him too..haha Then there's Jason Momoa..but he's getting married, darn such a hottie too!

It's kind of hard for me as a shy girl around guys to function correctly when I have a crush on them. Really I am very quite most of the times, but if you know how to make me talk, I will talk. But I don't like talking about myself. I don't think it's enlightening or interesting. Honestly....plus I like my privacy. I mean really like it like it. It's like if you ask me a personal question and I don't want to tell you, I wont tell you until I feel like I want to, then I'll tell you. Otherwise...no. That goes with simple questions too. I'm just stubborn like that I guess.

What would I be really after? Not just some type of fling. I'm not into being a in a relationship just for the sake of being in a relationship. Im in it all the way. I like things to come and stay. So I think this is a detriment to me. I'll never let a guy into my life unless I know he's in it all the way too.

So as for guys chasing me or asking me out. Sorry to say this, but you will be rejected all the way. But for guys who are really interested in me and continue chasing me and shows some sincerty, I may consider it. But that doesn't mean a definite yes either.

Yes alot to digest. But that's the real me on this subject. I can't understand men, too many signs that I can never understand besides that 1 which isn't something I'm interested in.  Why can't they be direct? Don't beat around the bush...I hate that.  Why are they so mean too? I also hate that! Men.........

Lol, now I don't know if this is a complaint against men or a complaint against me on men...what the?crap...oh well... 

For those who have actually read all of this...man...thanks! I hope it's been entertaining at least, cuz I know this is one long blog. But no...in reality I don't want to hear the "You'll find a guy eventually", eh..it's just not something I can see myself in the future with. I don't really think I'm holding my self back from something good. I just don't see it to be something that would bring me happiness except for confusion and drama which I don't need.